Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Happy Birthday Me

Today is 12.12.12. My birthday. I originally wanted to throw myself a huge party, I mean, the triple 12’s are the last of their kind AND it’s my 35th bday…a party is all deserving. I also made a 12x12 list in honor of my day, 12 things to accomplish in 12 months.

Well…

The party didn’t happen and I crossed 2 things of the 12x12 list. Oh well, I’m not a list-maker-follower anyway. I can’t even commit to a grocery list, so I don’t know what I was thinking.

Sticking with the 12 theme, I decided to write my 12-year-old self a Do’s and Don’ts list. Until, I realized the Don’ts molded me into who I am today. And at 35 I LOVE who I am and where I am. Sure, if I could benefit from the sweetness without going through the sour parts of my past I would. Who wouldn’t? But, it doesn’t work like that.

NO PAIN NO GAIN – Jane Fonda

We all know life doesn’t come with a GPS and it’s hard to see or even think your life could be different, better, or amazing when you’re going through rough times. Often we don’t see the beauty in our “mess” until we’ve moved away from it.

It’s like a painting see? From far away, it’s OK, but up close, it’s a big old mess. (Alicia Silverstone as Cher in Clueless referring to a Monet painting)

But, what if I could give my 12-year-old self the gift of a Life GPS? How many of us would hang on through the wrong turns, the re-routes, and U-Turns if we knew we were heading some place fantastic?

Don’t give up five minutes before the miracle – Iyanla Vanzant

I’d tell the little girl with the clunky pink glasses:

I can’t give you specifics because I’m afraid you’d possibly change what happens in the future and miss out on something great. But, I’ll tell you the path will be bumpy. You’ll experience emotional and physical pain and you’ll be broken for awhile. But, you WILL heal.

Turn your wounds into wisdom – Oprah Winfrey

You’ll find passion in an unexpected gift

There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it’s going to be a butterfly.
-R. Buckminster Fuller

Just hold on because 3 wonderful someone’s are waiting for you. I promise…

Guidance in a Purpose
Protection in an Angel
Love in a Gentle Caress
Clarity in a Gem
-Crystal Blake

Monday, December 3, 2012

Dignity is a Fortress

When I enter a room my poise strikes a pose
Confidence is my pedestal, higher than my stilettos

To myself I am a Queen, I don't accept just anything
Why would you approach me if you’re not worthy of a King?

You see me as prey, your eyes open like a hawk
Mouth full of drool, a predator as you stalk

You flash a smile and throw me a wink
I roll my eyes so hard, it’s clear what you think

I try to ignore you and hope you’ll go away
You don’t get the hint and you head my way

You can’t be serious? I shake my head in disbelief
Why are you trying to bring your foolishness to me?

You slither over to deliver your line
You don’t have a clue you’re wasting your time

I’m unfazed by your hook, your bait I don’t accept
So, out of your mouth marches a parade of disrespect

I’m confused. What part of your being did I offend?
All I said was, “No, thank you. I don’t need you as a friend.”

You only confirmed a life with you would be insane
If I’m nothing to you now, then nothing I’d remain

I realize it’s impossible to see what ignites in my head
But, that wasn’t your desire anyway, I get it, I understand

I take pity on your perception, your wealth of ignorance
I’m sorry for all those women who felt they were worthy of this

It’s not your fault; some women find your presence remarkable
It’s not their fault; they don’t know dignity should be untouchable

Think what you want about me, I’m not ashamed
I won’t apologize for answering to nothing less than my name

Maybe one day all women will again put their standards first
And not settle for men who want to negotiate their worth

The message needs to be passed from one to the next
Only then will those men understand we won’t settle for less

Until that day, I will stand with respect all on my own
My fortress is strong around my Predator-Free zone

Because when I enter a room my poise strikes a pose
Confidence is my pedestal, higher than my stilettos

To myself I am a Queen, I don't accept just anything
So, don’t approach me, my honor is reserved for my King